|T was very proud to "finally" figure out how spoons work.|
|A showing T how puzzles work.|
|A playing at the turtle pond while T napped on my chest.|
What did throw me for a loop were the things that I didn't expect. I didn't expect that my labor with T would go so fast that my mom wouldn't even have a chance to start driving down from her house 2 hours away before I had him (thankfully we had wonderful neighbors who watched A for us until my mom made it down, I'm sad that they have since moved). I really didn't expect that after a short and comparatively** easy labor and delivery I would have some complications that make a full recovery take weeks. What I really didn't expect was that when I woke up the morning after T was born feeling great and wanting nothing more than to go home to see my husband and daughter that I would have to stay two more days because T was jaundiced. Honestly, those two days were probably harder than any other two days together since he was born and I think it is because an extended hospital stay was the one thing I didn't expect. I didn't expect that I wouldn't be able to go home to see my girl or that my new son wouldn't be able to wear the cute little hat I knit him because all of his skin would need to be exposed for the lights to work. I didn't expect that after a VBAC we would wind up staying at the hospital almost as long as I did after my c-section. I didn't expect that my mom would have to be watching A for that long while recovering from gallbladder surgery or that I wouldn't be able to bring her new grandson home for her birthday.
|If you look closely you can still see the yellow around his eyes.|
|The two of us under the lights.|
This last year has taught me a lot. I have learned how to better juggle my life. I have learned just how much my almost-three-year-old can do to help and just how strong her will can be. I have learned just how fast a baby can crawl when he really wants to get to something before you can stop him. I have learned how much a barely-one-year-old can get into when his big sister is there to "help". I have learned how amazing it is to watch children grow and learn every day. I have learned how frustrating it can be when nothing goes the way you plan. I have learned how to let go and enjoy what I can. But most of all, I have learned the power of expectations and how they can shape our lives for better or worse.
|He climbed up on his own and got down safely. I was |
standing by just in case.
* I don't want to hear any complaints about my lack of blogging or pictures. As much as I love writing, I've been rather busy lately and my family comes first.
**Compared to A's birth. Honestly, even with the issues I had later, T's birth and the recovery after was way easier than A's. But that is a story for another day (if I ever find time). All I will say is that I prefer natural childbirth to a c-section any day of the week even though I am really, really thankful for the doctor that delivered A and kept us both safe.
*** The standard way to do phototherapy is to keep the baby in a bassinet under UV lights. However, T would not have any of that and would scream his little lungs out and refuse to nurse which just made stuff worse. The solution that we found with the help of a very helpful lactation consultant was for him to lay next to me while I was awake and to put the lights over both of us. Since I was nearby he stayed much calmer and was even able to nurse under the lights which would not have been possible with the standard protocol. This solution is not for everyone, but it worked really well for us and I am thankful for the staff that helped make it happen.